Tuesday, 5 January 2010
Boy vs. Girl
"There's no way you're all girl!" my wife once said to me after watching me enjoying the innocent pleasure of powersliding a lawn tractor on wet grass. And she's right. Within me I've got as much of an intact slice of my built-in maleness as I have the transgendered female that's been there ever since I can remember.Both sides of me together have allowed me to do some really cool things I might never have experienced had I not been born transgendered. Spending a day rebuilding an oily and worn engine is just as enjoyable to me as people-watching from a coffeeshop window and analysing the fashion choices of the passers-by, and I feel fortunate that I can appreciate them and other things normally reserved for one side or the other.The trick is not to suppress either, not to let them go to war. Suppressing my inner girl brought me nothing but pain, setting her free has allowed me to achieve things I never thought possible. I just have to be careful of the protective instinct of my male side. If I'm not careful, he'll have me opening doors for myself.